Akal, releasing the soul….

When a person dies, in Kundalini Yoga we chant the mantra ‘Akal’.   

The mantra ‘Akal’ is chanted to help release the soul from its attachment to this life.  ‘There is no death, only liberation’.

The death of Her Majesty Queen Elizabeth II ….I am no royalist, but I take great pleasure in getting lost in a period drama series or film.

I find freedom getting lost in the history of the monarchy, when it’s written, directed and produced for Television, for me to really understand. I love to watch, Downton Abbey, The Crown, Elizabeth, Bridgerton.

I laugh & I am eager to understand how a women’s destiny is to find a suiter, that will give her finance & security.

The Queen is all I have ever known.  Queen Elizabeth II, her face, her presence her reign.  On money, stamps. Over the years, seeing countries become independent from Britain & thinking how were they ever connected…& hearing the Queen was connected to over 40 other countries….MMMMmmm…Life can be so grand, yet so short.

Its really weird because at the time of the news flash, sharing the Queen was very ill, I felt her soul was already in transition, she had already passed.

Grief has the most profound impact on our physical & emotional well-being.

For me it waxes & wanes through me stirring up memories, feelings & emotions. Causing the most amount of commotion in my mind, body & soul. Leaving me at times in my experience feeling physically exhausted, dis-ease, scatty, loss of memory, drifting in & out of an Ibis. Thinking about living & dieing. I could go on.

For me the past few years, have been a deeply emotional. Its been a feeling of loss & overall sadness. Stirring up feelings, emotions of the loss of a ‘Matriarch’. My grandmother, rumbles memories.

This year seems like the year, for Family & friends close to me to loose their ‘Monarch’, their ‘Matriarch’, this has triggered in me a feeling to grab & experiences life, not loose time make memories with my ‘Monarch’. But it’s also given me space to have empathy for other people’s grief & emotional well-being. Where they are at in the emotion, commotion of loss.

When I give myself the opportunity, my mind wonders into another person’s thoughts & feelings. I walk in their shoes. I sit in great wonder how the Prime minister must feel, her thoughts, in the short moments, days. You curtsied , shook hands & was welcomed into your role, by a Queen & then just like that you rose from your curtsy there now standing before you is a ‘King’.

Chanting the manta “Akaal” was, has and is great support through the grieving process.

Akal

The mantra ‘Akal’ maybe chanted in a practice dedicated to helping the soul rise in a group of family & friends chant for a loved one using the “Akaal” sound repetitively for 11 minutes over 17 days. Creating a powerful Echo sound cloud of word ‘Akal’. The sound translates into “no death, deathless, immortal, timeless.” It reminds the soul of its basic nature. It can also be chanted by one person alone, for 11 minutes over the 17 days.

This year alone, I have chanted, the mantra, more times than I can remember, for the ‘Queen’ Monarch of families & close friends because they have lost the heads of their families, their loved ones their ‘Queens’ to their thrones.

I am feeling, carrying loss, for all Queens, heads of families. A deeper emotion in my commotion for all loved ones around me, dear to my heart. It has taken me time to post this, as I am waxing & waning through my own personal grief & loss. But I embrace the emotion to be authentic & open in sharing.

In all of this past & present “no death, deathless, immortal, timeless….The Queen of England passes. ‘AKAL’ day 11, reminding the soul of its basic nature.

‘Akal‘ There is no death, only liberation’.

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Situational Depression

If you read ‘All About Me’ one of the things about my character is the organic rawness of my authenticity, experiences that makes me who I am, drives my enthusiasm to share my passion for self love, living an holistic lifestyle to enhance my well-being. I only teach, share what I am have experienced.

There is light at the end of the road

Subconsciously there has been a knock, a prod to write a blog, that is consistent, sharing thoughts experiences actions and reactions. Oh my dayz! When you don’t answer your knocks and prods you soon get catapulted into what you need to do…So here I am writing…your comments, likes shares will be most welcomed. My honesty, vulnerability is here on these pages, learning life’s lessons.

This is probably going to be one of my hardest, changing, metamorphosis, transformation journey, path…I don’t know where, what the end will be.

It’s happening now. I can share, show and tell when and now. Share & follow me on Instagram satyapremkaur

So here we go…I bloody hope this is short term. 🙏🏽

Situational depression is a short-term, stress-related type of depression. It can develop after you experience a traumatic event or series of events. Situational depression is a type of adjustment disorder. It can make it hard for you to adjust to your everyday life following a traumatic event. It’s also known as reactive depression.

Events that can cause situational depression include:

• problems at work or school
• illness
• death of a loved one
• moving
• relationship problems

This 3rd lockdown, has thrown me into the target of experiencing first hand how your mental health can be challenged, torn and thrown into a minefield.

The majority of my working and personal life, I have been blessed to have support and guidance even through times that have been challenging, clarity has been given to see the light and reason through the tunnel, path of life.

This blogg is going to read as scrambled, because that’s how I feel where I am at.

How did I get here? I meditate, fast, practice yoga, take cold showers, inhale and exhale…watch and manage my energy and who comes into my auric space.

I have…I thought, felt I had leveled up! During this pandemic, was living my best life.

4 months into the start of this pandemic, I was given the opportunity to use all my skills, share the benefits of holistic health and well-being and help people and get paid. The work was intense, but so satisfying, encouraging help and support to families, children, vulnerable people struggling with the pandemic, struggling with life. However this was only a temporary position. During this time, I began to explore other opportunities, different areas of employment, will the same goals to help and support that would again be rewarding.

I was ready to leave my old position, stepping into a new role, new responsibilities, into the unknown with enthusiasm, creativity and empathy, with an edge of excitement.

As time moved on…the excitement and enthusiasm began to be replaced with doubt, uncertainty with an edge of….I am still trying to find the word…But the position department, role was just not sitting well within. I began to feel I was moving into an environment of disorder, frustration, anxiety. I am not really sure again if those are the words, I fitting to describe.

I wouldn’t say, everything is a blur, but its difficult to share, write my emotions, feelings the place where I am at now as everything is in the core of my being and I am not able to move through it so easy.

I really don’t believe the characters I have been around the past month are as a result of the pandemic, their characters were as such before, the pandemic has allowed for their deep rooted dark self to reign.

I have heard of the term ‘Gas lighting’ and to be on the receiving end is really like being on a merry go round, that you’d like to get off, but everyone on it is enjoying the ride.

I am ‘Drowning, not waving’ I am in ‘Situational Depression‘