Protect your energy…

When your back is up against the wall; you really feel you are failing on all levels….

‘Worry’….have you ever thought about the meaning behind common ‘Worry’ quotes. You’ll Worry yourself to death.

Admitting I was stressed, due to work relationships, escalating work loads made me feel…I am struggling to even write the word, embarrassed, a failure that I wasn’t coping with every day working tasks. Further not admitting, accepting this had spilled over into my personal life, not being able to sleep, eat, leave my home, personal space.

I am physically, psychologically and emotionally drained. I fight to sleep with ease, waking with anxiety, worse my mind race’s, trying to manage my thoughts and actions.

….All because of words and energy….negative language, negative energy.

So what have I learnt from what I call an horrific experience. Protect your energy, recognise and see your intuition…Your intuition will show true colours, truth of what will come and what will be.

I saw the dark, erratic energy in this person, internally and externally. I persued it by questioning others and sharing my thoughts, reasoning continously.

My intuition gave me restless, nights and discomfort as I went about my daily business. With a depth so strong, it let a feeling of unease ripple through my mind body and soul. However in the reality, I ignored it, ignored it all.

Although I am battered and bruised inside and out…it has come to an end…a brutal end. Still wanting to walk away, still wanting to just let go and just for the emotional pain and anxiety to release me from my sleepless nights, my energy less days.

I exit this situational depression, with an email…I would like to state the following, that created ‘work related stress’…

And now my time is done, I will resign and move on….without a regular income, without employment…But reassurance my peace of mind and my well-being is the greatest thing.

Blessings needed, used to keep me well and healthy. Meditation, Walks, Fasting…most of all listening to my own truth and following my intuition..this is a process…Sometimes, I hear songs, with words, meanings that resignate with what I am going through, or how I am feeling…

Just to be clear, not everyone is in a place to leave their job, walk away…

Go to your GP, be honest and tell him, her how you are feeling. For me, I was literally going out of my mind…the stress was immense physically, psychologically, emotionally I couldn’t, didn’t have the space to eat, drink, sleep, carry out daily tasks. Every day is a journey, wounds will heal, thoughts will fade, energy will return.

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Hello April

Time to Live, Love, Laugh

This new month gives us the opportunity to make choices and changes.

It’s obvious things will never be the same again, we can never go back.

The biggest lesson, I have learned is to protect your energy….Although almost a little too late…Slipping into situational depression as been a sluggish trail of mixed up thoughts….snowflakes for confidence.

I choose to love, live, laugh….

Situational Depression

If you read ‘All About Me’ one of the things about my character is the organic rawness of my authenticity, experiences that makes me who I am, drives my enthusiasm to share my passion for self love, living an holistic lifestyle to enhance my well-being. I only teach, share what I am have experienced.

There is light at the end of the road

Subconsciously there has been a knock, a prod to write a blog, that is consistent, sharing thoughts experiences actions and reactions. Oh my dayz! When you don’t answer your knocks and prods you soon get catapulted into what you need to do…So here I am writing…your comments, likes shares will be most welcomed. My honesty, vulnerability is here on these pages, learning life’s lessons.

This is probably going to be one of my hardest, changing, metamorphosis, transformation journey, path…I don’t know where, what the end will be.

It’s happening now. I can share, show and tell when and now. Share & follow me on Instagram satyapremkaur

So here we go…I bloody hope this is short term. 🙏🏽

Situational depression is a short-term, stress-related type of depression. It can develop after you experience a traumatic event or series of events. Situational depression is a type of adjustment disorder. It can make it hard for you to adjust to your everyday life following a traumatic event. It’s also known as reactive depression.

Events that can cause situational depression include:

• problems at work or school
• illness
• death of a loved one
• moving
• relationship problems

This 3rd lockdown, has thrown me into the target of experiencing first hand how your mental health can be challenged, torn and thrown into a minefield.

The majority of my working and personal life, I have been blessed to have support and guidance even through times that have been challenging, clarity has been given to see the light and reason through the tunnel, path of life.

This blogg is going to read as scrambled, because that’s how I feel where I am at.

How did I get here? I meditate, fast, practice yoga, take cold showers, inhale and exhale…watch and manage my energy and who comes into my auric space.

I have…I thought, felt I had leveled up! During this pandemic, was living my best life.

4 months into the start of this pandemic, I was given the opportunity to use all my skills, share the benefits of holistic health and well-being and help people and get paid. The work was intense, but so satisfying, encouraging help and support to families, children, vulnerable people struggling with the pandemic, struggling with life. However this was only a temporary position. During this time, I began to explore other opportunities, different areas of employment, will the same goals to help and support that would again be rewarding.

I was ready to leave my old position, stepping into a new role, new responsibilities, into the unknown with enthusiasm, creativity and empathy, with an edge of excitement.

As time moved on…the excitement and enthusiasm began to be replaced with doubt, uncertainty with an edge of….I am still trying to find the word…But the position department, role was just not sitting well within. I began to feel I was moving into an environment of disorder, frustration, anxiety. I am not really sure again if those are the words, I fitting to describe.

I wouldn’t say, everything is a blur, but its difficult to share, write my emotions, feelings the place where I am at now as everything is in the core of my being and I am not able to move through it so easy.

I really don’t believe the characters I have been around the past month are as a result of the pandemic, their characters were as such before, the pandemic has allowed for their deep rooted dark self to reign.

I have heard of the term ‘Gas lighting’ and to be on the receiving end is really like being on a merry go round, that you’d like to get off, but everyone on it is enjoying the ride.

I am ‘Drowning, not waving’ I am in ‘Situational Depression‘

Reaction….Action

Although we have been placed on the National Lock Down Naughty Step. It may force a feeling of frustrating and a force to get out, get on.

In areas of our lives, there is need to rest.

Put down our phones, step away from our computers, laptops and our television. Inhale and exhale relax unwind. Take advantage of this unique time. Find yourself,.without time, without haste.

Let the mind flow..into a space of peace, changing an habit of hectic times,.living in the past.

Change to a pattern of calm, staying present, living for only what is happening now.

Inhale to Exhale

My Sunday…

My Sunday was truly a day spent counting my blessings.  I was grateful for life, for loved ones and all things bright and beautiful around me.

I began to surrender on a journey to let go of what I can’t control.  I can’t control ‘Feeling physically tired’…I went back to sleep, because my mind, body and soul needed rest, needed sleep.

I practiced kindness…watered the plants, the herbs in my home, without haste.  I talked to them, spent time running the water to reach a temperature not to startle, the roots.  I was kind to myself, when I felt myself drifting in and out of sleep…I didn’t fight it.  Instead I gathered my pillows cushions and duvet and immersed myself in a sound Bath of gongs, mantra and affirmations of love, light, healing, for love, health, protection and projection.

I listened to my heart…because it is always right.

Finally, the most blissful act of all is…To ‘Breathe’ just to ‘Breathe‘.  I inhaled, slowly, deeply.  Exhaled, slowly, deeply.  Recognising each deep inhalation…was an emotional fight to make haste to exhale out, make haste to move on with life, with time.  I gave myself permission, an invitation to… Slow my breath… releasing guilt for taking the time to just ‘Breathe’…Releasing the tension in the body, roaming thoughts of the mind.  The thoughts that stop, rest, sleep, that create a tired mind, body and soul.

My Sunday “to do” List

Count My Blessings,  Let go of what I can’t control, Practice Kindness, Listen to my Heart, Just Breathe.