I Am Happy, I Am Good, I Am Happy, I Am Good…

June 18, 2021 by Satya Leave a comment

This time last week, I was preparing to go camping alone, to a festival alone. I have been reflecting a lot about myself. Am I Happy? Am I Good?

To be honest my happiness, as morphed into a ‘Happi-Mess’. A Happy-Mess of worrying, not Happy, not good.

It didn’t take long, during reflection to see, my ‘Happi-Mess’…because the feeling, discomfort is actually stronger than the visualisation.

My ‘Happi-Mess’ moves in waves, sailing through ups and downs successfully finding the medium of yes you’ve guessed it, a ‘Happi-Mess’.

Happi-Mess, is a balance where everyone around me, is happy, healthy and whole in their comings and goings because they have my time, attention and will to do has they please to be consistently ‘Happy, and Good’. Whilst I remain in my Happi-Mess, grasping oh so sweet moments of being Happy and Good.

I have no one to look to, but myself, I can only make choices for myself so in a funny sort of….I want to break free, from this ‘Happi-Mess’, I began to look at what I did not like, what I was doing, my habits, patterns that had created my you guessed it my ‘Happi-Mess’.

Looking around me, there are no longer babies, young ones, family who need my time and support. They can manage, but make choices to hold my time and support.

So little by little, I have been making I am Happy, I Am Good choices.

Yes, Yes, Yes! Go, Go, Go! Choices. So here I am all booked up to go camping 🏕…at a Festival ☺, Vegan, Holistic Festival…Everything that makes me ‘Happy’, makes me ‘Good’. Releasing myself from my ‘Happi-Mess’, that is unfulfilled.

I explored delicious Vegan food, walked, slept under the stars adoring the Moon, in its crescent 🌙form.

I watched the Sun rise…

And watched the Sunset.

I danced until nearly midnight, invited my body to return to Yoga, find my ‘Yoke’ to be open, stretching with no clocks, no alarms.

Sat by a lake, stepped into the lake, wade in the water…sending my ‘Happi-Mess’ away, for me to become Happy and Good.

I chose to live in the moment, using balance…I felt I didn’t have to ‘Paddle Board’

And just like that…I made a single choice….I Am Happy, I Am Good, I Am Happy, I Am Good….

Author: Satya

I am a fully qualified and practising holistic therapist, with a passion for holistic health and yogic life with over 10 years kundalini yoga experience. My given kundalini yogic name is ‘Satya Prem Kaur’, which means Princess of truth and love. I first tried kundalini yoga, looking for change in deep rooted habitual patterns, which I felt and began to realise was not only blocking me from my truth, but my creative potential. I began to attend regular classes workshops and retreats, and eventually after two years embarked on a transformative journey to become a level one kundalini yoga instructor. Kundalini is the yoga of science, and transformation. It open’s you up creative awareness, which works directly on the total energy of the seven ‘Chakra’s’. My growth in the benefits to the mind, body and soul has deepened with my kundalini practice, leading me to specialise in Meditation, Mantras, Food and the Mood, Cleansing practices, Feminine energy and the Breath. Sharing the teachings, not only in classes, workshops, one to one, blogs, personal practice and social media.